I Screwed Up Cadets...

RUN AWAY WITH YOUR IMPECCABLE KIN!
(The Kinslayer - Nightwish)
Okay, so, On the 20th, I was at Camp. Should've been a normal weekend, but there was an SCIC going on, and yeah, guess what? Rebecca was on it. I freaked once, I freaked twice, then it all fucked up. I realised not talking to her was a bad move, so I was determined to talk. After lights out, I climbed out the bathroom window of the billet, and ran round camp trying to find her room. I was on the run for we over an hour, and I've been told that 40 Marines were looking for me too. The sad thing is, I thought she was worth it. Obviously not. I really would do anything: Why am I crazy over her? WHY? WHY? WHY?When the OC told me I could parade, but not go on camps, I had to leave. I didn't really have a choice. Oh God, I screwed it up. I just want it back now, but unfortunately, that's the price I have to pay. Does anyone or anything give second chances in this world?...

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Asthma? Oh God...

Oh yeah, it looks like it my be coming back. Well, I'm pissed off with a couple of people for taking my phone on Friday, and I'm even MORE pissed off with a couple of people who don't seem to believe me. One day I will prove to them what happened, and then laugh in their faces. On the other hand, I find it rather amusing to watch them get annoyed, so I might as well have some fun while I'm at it!
Anyway, I ran the Cross Country for A Company Intermediate Girls yesterday, and came a miserable last! Well, at least I completed it rather than pulling out like last year, but not without a price. Well, it was hard to breathe, even when I'd taken my inhaler, and the thought of her DADDY stressed me into bad breathing. Just as I thought it was all going away, it happened again yesterday evening. I really hope this don't mean a trip to the hospital and a load of junk to take. The doctor gave me an inhaler on Friday, which means my plans for the Army have been shoved back 5 years. Mainly though, I think this is panic. Still, if my 'asthma' is to do with panic, I guess it's bye bye cadets. Joy.

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Miss Havisham...

Yes, I've made up my mind. I'm going to wait.

I don't want anyone else.

I want Rebecca.

I was reading a poem from my anthology in English the other day, when I read a poem call 'Havisham' by Carol Ann Duffy. It was based on a character from some book, bearing in mind I wasn't interested in the lesson. She was left at the altar, so she waited for years, and had gone mad. So, I think that's what I'll do. I love her. I really, really do. She tells me to grow up, move on, but I don't want to. I'll wait. She won't believe me, but I will. I've made up my mind, and I want a second chance, even if I have to wait forever. Perhaps one day I'll get my White Night Fantasy. God, I'm even talking in Nightwish songs. WAAA!

LOSING EMOTION, FINDING DEVOTION.

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Sidmouth At The Fire Station

17th January 2011
Sidmouth Detachment visited the local fire station.
We watched Seal being saved from a car 'incident', and did a quiz,Was a good night actually!Can you spot me in the pictures?

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.22 Competition 2011

6th February 2011

It was a good day! [:

A Company won some shiny trophies, so all's good!

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